in the car, i just can't wait.

3 hours of sleep does not bode well with angel.
body pains.
head is going places idk.
seriously.
i just thought of the song zombie. then kittens then rock hill,.
wtf
randomize when zombie? maybe so.
i wanna feel the music pulse in my body.
i wanna sway with that beat that i haven't felt in too long.
it's time to be ok again
it's time to get lost again.
it's time to get wrapped up in the music and mellow out yet freak out. <3
i love this.
i want this.


....see? random.

prolly is NOT probably.

i'm about sick of that word. very stupid.

yay for easter and Jesus coming back from the dead and being a good zombie? XD

woah. it hit me. zombie Apocalypse will happen...IN THE FINAL DAYS WHEN ALL THE DEAD COMES BACK TO LIFE~! AND JESUS COMES BACK!!!


woahhh......i'm so. READY! wait. sbdfuilashguklethuerhl i'll be in heave watching the damn thing. *sigh* sometimes i wish i wasn't so confirmed in my faith. that way zombie fighting would happen for me too. D: but hey. who could say no to heaven?? XD NOTTT MEEEEEE


haha. sorry i gots all bible on you guys. XD it was fun thinking about it though. :)

note: if and a very strong IF. I have a child. no candy will be around. Tori scared me today a little too much. :/ damn candy. and smart babies. >.>

heart attack at the age of 18? right. here.

ugh. i wanna go to bed instead of all this mess but sleep won't come to me. D:

oh well....

er

i just realized that the time on blogger is wrong....
this kinda annoys me....


i mean honestly? :P

i feel gritty and gross....i wish i wasn't grounded. i wanna hit up the beach and my body hurts from the gym and work. ughhhh workkk....again tomorrow. and this whole week....maybe i shouldn't have covered so much for charo....


BUT THE MONEY! That's the important part. I will have enough to send off to Winthrop by then. Thank God.

this is a random rant. I just have lots of thoughts today.

I wanna go tanning.....so i think i might.

i think.

i need to run away. and escape. and visit countries. and see my grandma who i miss dearly. and breathe air that's not humid. and not worry about anything. and be free. like a birdie. :D

i need. to be angel again. to not hurt peoples feelings. to be bubbly again. to be me again. to talk to my old friends and see what went wrong. to be a better person. to learn to forgive and forget. to let others have the chance to forgive me. to be able to do anything. to be there when people need me. to be super girl. i need to be everything.

i wish. there was no one but me in this world. that only my dreams can go away. that nightmares never happen. that good feelings to only be present. that i will be successful. that my father will go to jail where he belongs. that my mother will go back to her normal self. that everyone can be happy. that i can be happy too. i wish. for the world to be better.....but stuff like that never happens.

i dream. that superman will come save me. that i will be lois lane and this time. want to leave into a different world. i can live with a different country. i dream about college in new york. or ohio. that my life wasn't so stressful. that i had money. that my family wasn't so fucked up.that i don't dream of death.



i don't want to dream of death.