i think.

i need to run away. and escape. and visit countries. and see my grandma who i miss dearly. and breathe air that's not humid. and not worry about anything. and be free. like a birdie. :D

i need. to be angel again. to not hurt peoples feelings. to be bubbly again. to be me again. to talk to my old friends and see what went wrong. to be a better person. to learn to forgive and forget. to let others have the chance to forgive me. to be able to do anything. to be there when people need me. to be super girl. i need to be everything.

i wish. there was no one but me in this world. that only my dreams can go away. that nightmares never happen. that good feelings to only be present. that i will be successful. that my father will go to jail where he belongs. that my mother will go back to her normal self. that everyone can be happy. that i can be happy too. i wish. for the world to be better.....but stuff like that never happens.

i dream. that superman will come save me. that i will be lois lane and this time. want to leave into a different world. i can live with a different country. i dream about college in new york. or ohio. that my life wasn't so stressful. that i had money. that my family wasn't so fucked up.that i don't dream of death.



i don't want to dream of death.