biggest baddest

i really am kinda proud of myself so far.
instead of yelling and bitching at people i don't like. i am being so calm and good.
although i have been interrupted in my sleep and now can not sleep. having a hard time breathing from all of the smoke in the air. i am being good. I am being nice. quiet. nonviolent. I am proud.

Although i had only junk food to eat and ran for 2.5 hours. [which i am so proud of] and am so exhausted from it all. I am being good.

Although they trash the house I have just cleaned after driving for not just the 3.5 hours, but also the extra 2.5 hours to help out people the same day. I am calm. holding in anger. although it's the one thing i am not allowed to do, i know it's wrong to get so mad.

god i am so ready for classes.
i never signed up for this bullshit.