i want to write.
nothing comes to mind.
just this headache that keeps bothering me.

put a little love in your heart.

It's time to get back and say hi to a few people. I forget how I miss the sunsets of a small town like beaufort. And the way the stars seem a little brighter.

My friends Kendra and David are now engaged. They have a love so pure that it makes me smile to see them together.It's those couples that give me hope. I wish them the best.

It's time to go back to where I was before I think. Time to let my hair grow out again. Time to see what I should do in life. Look past my 30th birthday and try to wish that I can actually live longer. Maybe smile a little more. Stress a little less. Who knows, It might be all I needed.

It's time to feel that nasty sticky weather. And say my last goodbyes.

For Miss Hannah...

even though she'll never read this, I must write what's been on my mind...
I'm a coward to keep things from her just because I don't know her very well.
My heart cries for her each time I look at a person I care for, each time I think back to August. Each time I see her in the halls, My heart screams and aches for her.

Just a little more hurt in a young life. Another heartache that will never pass. A life so dear to her just lost again in an awkward and unfair twist of fate.


Hannah from bluffton, who now attends Winthrop, has lost her boyfriend in a motorcycle accident. He was cut off and passed away on the trip to the hospital. Life just takes away the things that make you smile.

Hannah, I see you always distant now. I don't know you barely at all, except your name, the high school and college you're at, and that you're friends with my roommate. But my heart can understand your hurt and possible anger. It's a battle to not cry when I see you look away when you see couples in Winthrop. It hurts me to know that you cry a little more seeing them be happy. It amazes me to see you so strong and still take classes here. You are a stronger person than I. I pray you find love again and your heart heals. It's not fair that life gets taken away so quickly.

It reminds me of Xavier even more...
I'll be visiting my buddy this weekend...I'll be playing for him and hopes that he can hear it. It hurts quite horribly to think of my close friend to be gone, and I can't imagine if someone I loved so dearly in an intimate way left.

My heart aches for you Hannah...
In so many ways.
Have Hope and stay strong. I'll be praying for you.