Sometimes, you never be alone.
I've been talking to this guy named Preston Shacklefurd. He's pretty cool. He's the guitar played in the band The Apprehended. It's pretty interesting, because I thought here we go again, some dude just wanted to bug the hell outta me. I don't get why Michael thinks it'd be cool to talk to him...What ya know I'm not so alone after all.
I feel horrible whenever I think about it that way. It really is not a good thing to be happy about, but I really can't help it. Preston's dad abused him and his mother when he was younger. His mom divorced him after his little sister was born and they moved down here. He's had a pretty hard life too. He has a cute little girl named Natalie and he's really proud of her and doesn't shun her like most guys who have kids do. He's only 19 turned 20. No, he doesn't live with the mother of Natalie but they still talk. I don't know but I'm pretty damn sure that Preston has had it harder than me. He made it through high school, I'm really glad he's alright. He acts as though everything is just fine with life. I hate to admit it but I'm really glad someone else had it pretty rough and it isn't a character from a book I read.
I think this is the fastest I've trusted a person in general. I think it's foolish, yes but the simple fact that he too survived abuse in a way really gets in interested and trust him more. It's stupid, yet I just feel like I should. I wish more people understood how hard this really was. How everyday feels like you've been drugged with a downer and it takes so much to get through the day.
I love acting really I think I'd be famous one day if it wasn't for my love for music. I even fool myself sometimes.
I'm also a big scaredy cat I think. I'm always so afraid to post what I really feel to the public, and Blogger doesn't count because at most, 3 people read this. I wish I can tell people what I really think with no fear. I wish I could just be brave. I'm just so fake honestly just because I'm not proud of my past, I'm so ashamed. I wish I could be proud like Preston. He's really someone I wish I could be like. *sigh*
My life in a nutshell is just stupid.
I feel horrible whenever I think about it that way. It really is not a good thing to be happy about, but I really can't help it. Preston's dad abused him and his mother when he was younger. His mom divorced him after his little sister was born and they moved down here. He's had a pretty hard life too. He has a cute little girl named Natalie and he's really proud of her and doesn't shun her like most guys who have kids do. He's only 19 turned 20. No, he doesn't live with the mother of Natalie but they still talk. I don't know but I'm pretty damn sure that Preston has had it harder than me. He made it through high school, I'm really glad he's alright. He acts as though everything is just fine with life. I hate to admit it but I'm really glad someone else had it pretty rough and it isn't a character from a book I read.
I think this is the fastest I've trusted a person in general. I think it's foolish, yes but the simple fact that he too survived abuse in a way really gets in interested and trust him more. It's stupid, yet I just feel like I should. I wish more people understood how hard this really was. How everyday feels like you've been drugged with a downer and it takes so much to get through the day.
I love acting really I think I'd be famous one day if it wasn't for my love for music. I even fool myself sometimes.
I'm also a big scaredy cat I think. I'm always so afraid to post what I really feel to the public, and Blogger doesn't count because at most, 3 people read this. I wish I can tell people what I really think with no fear. I wish I could just be brave. I'm just so fake honestly just because I'm not proud of my past, I'm so ashamed. I wish I could be proud like Preston. He's really someone I wish I could be like. *sigh*
My life in a nutshell is just stupid.
posted by Angel at
4:57 PM
1 Comments:
i wish i could write what i really think too. but most of the time i can't figure out what that is.
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