It's been awhile, since I've gone and fucked things up, like I always do.

I'm not sure if you can swear on a blog title, if not, oh well.

Here's to the new year. The year where I can finally leave this town filled with drama from my father, from people who call themselves my friends.

I can cry freely when I leave, keeping the final tears here, right where it belongs.

It's an interesting thought.

I moved to Ridgeland SC with tears of sorrow and the pain of homesickness. I remember it vividly. I missed my friends and family back home, and didn't want to start anew yet again in this little town where it was too hot and always really humid and the people where all really weird and redneck-ish

I'm leaving Ridgeland with tears yet again. a small part with sorrow because as I leave, I leave behind my support group of friends, and people who have inspired me through it all. Most of the tears come from the final drama and heartbreak I have dealt with in the year 2009. and how it will be the last time this will hurt me so terribly.

College life will start with a touch a fear, the hope of something new, and the excitement of proving I am worth more than you think.

It's not too far away, like I orignally wished for, I won't see my beloved city of Chicago or Athens, Ohio and start up right away big. Money does that to you. I won't lose that dream, that hope. I will always follow the plan I wish for and prove them all wrong. I am going to make it all on my own.

With drama of what happens and the weight of my life in the past now lifted off, this will be easier than anything.

We can be heroes. Just for one day.