easy now

it's easy to lose yourself
into a fantasy world
where every trouble is just lost and what matters is now.
then reality catches up.
and you start hyperventilating.
You run to no one
because you know it's all your fault.
are you meant to give up?
are they all right?
is hope nothing but a lie?
false.
fake.
hope is something dumb you cling to when you know your outcome is bad?
maybe....
but for now
it's easy to slip back into not worrying
it's not time to freak out just yet
not yet
so easy