well hello there.

Angel has THE hardest time sleeping.

Sleep and I are horrid friends. I'm not sure why yet, but I never am allowed to get any sleep. I nap a good bit to make up for it while I don't have classes. I'm quite worried about my sleep patterns.

I miss sleeping on my firm-ish bed. the actual bed.

It's been about a year or so since I've had my own bed. an actual bed. Sad, right?

I can't wait to get an apartment. I get to get my own bed and kinda-house and live fine and dandy. I'm quite excited to get to that point in my life.

Pandora is kickin ass musically for me.

lotsa music mellow-ness I enjoy.

Gabe Dixson Band.

and The world turned.

AWESOME. song.

I loveeeee the piano.

I think I need to visit Marc so I can be awed by his piano magic. haha. His fingers like FLY over those keys and he can make my soul cry. It's quite amazing.

Very close to Jesse.

I would love to go back to my passion for flute. Maybe I'll force it soon here and play soon...I have so much music to work on....3 composers are a lot...

LeClair. how funny.

either way.

mmm.

beautiful music.

No matter what happens, Music can't be ugly to me. I can control it to be as beautiful as I want it to be. I love it.

I'll never be alone that way. I'll have my music forever.

Maybe that's how Drake feels.....that's why Drake's in his 30's and hasn't thought of marriage yet. Music IS his marriage. His life and love. Kinda like me.

I hope I get that far.


b.t.dubs. Caring is Creepy. ;) look it up.


When the hell did I turn into a Indie kid?

I need to quit enjoying the minds of potheads. This is the problem I believe.

I miss Jacob. I miss talking to him on Thursdays and laughing and getting his hugs and him looking at me just like a Brother should. I miss my brother.

Odd. I've never had a brotherly friend before....

I think I need to stop by orangeburg before I go home. I need to see Jacob. I need a hug and for him to tell me to shut up everything's going to be ok and that he'll look out for me even when he's not around and twirl me around like I'm 5 or something. I love that boy. I'm so glad he's got Anna, she's so sweet and pretty. :)

I feel like I've failed because I left Ms. Jillian's book in Rock Hill. I'm sucha dummy.

Well that just topped it off anyways.

I wish I was smarter and better...no matter how much help I ask for, It's hard to get.


Take these broken wings and fly.
All your life.
You were only waiting for this moment to arrive.


Blackbird fly.
<3

I realized the other day It's time for me to make a real friend at Winthrop and to stop distancing myself. That's why I have no real friends in Beaufort. I'm quite the dummy. I mean Jacob was one....but he's left. Time to try to be a good girl and be social and learn to not only find a friend, but be one again. Not the usual drone.

I miss Brad I think. And Brian. And Clint even.

Psh. I need a drink. Who the hell am I kidding. I need to fuck it all and drink and be alone. Just me. And my music.

if you never try, you never know...

God I need to learn to sleep. and face these silly nightmares. They're not that bad honestly. I just need to get overrrr it. honestly.


guide me home.