misses and kisses

take a sad song.
and make it better.

i miss how everything one.
it's lonely up here.
alone.
unwanted.
even your best friend hates you.
i'd love to cry for once in my life.
i want to.
quite badly.
no trust anymore.no hope or faith
just hate
so much hate.
i just want to go backwards instead of forwards.
maybe i should've taken a drink.
maybe i should've gotten more.
it wouldn't really help...
but it would for that moment.
i'll just cry later.
while in a practice room.
wishing there was a bed in there.
and some sort of comfort.