day twenty-eight

this past month I have dealt with 2 deaths, one of a good friend, and one of a close family member. I have dealt with the possibility of losing my future, of dealing with a close one in college far from me, of leaving behind people who love me, of seeing someone i look up to fighting cancer yet again, and the fear of losing her as well. I've learned not to cry when things happen for a reason. It's ok to cry when something so deeply hurts you, that education is everything I need in life right now, that no matter what happens, I'll be the best in what I do, even if I have to fight through crowds.

I've learned to cry.
to laugh.
to smile.
to appreciate life.
to be less jealous.
to be more loving.
to be excited
to be scared.
all this month I've learned to really and truly appreciate God.
To be more thankful.
And learn to receive knowing that I can give back one day in the future.
I've learned to be happy.
And to be me.

This month taught me more than I can explain to type.

This month has brought more sadness than I'd wish to express.

This month has brought me closer to some and I'm really thankful for it.