Time consumer, time consume me...

Sometimes I wonder if I'mreally worth every effort people give me.

I wonder why people stillgive an effort to sustain me, to make me happy, to help me feel alive.

It'd be wonderful if I could star over and feel anew.

But life doesn't work that way, does it?

I wonder what would happen sometimes....

Maybe life would be easier? God only knows.

Easy doesn't mean good.

I hope I can feel a bit more worthy of everything.

I sometimes would love to ask those who put effort into me why I'm so worth it.

Cameron, The Matlacks, Ms Angela in her own way, Ms Walker, Mr Drake, my own friends for staying my friends....I'm not so sure myself....

Hopeless.

I've finally become desperate and hopeless....