You want to be dressed in poetry but the imagry doesn't fit.
I am quite the selfish, jealous, and greedy one.
I wish I had some money. Big time. I'm looking at beautiful dresses for ideas about prom, and pageant [Which btw, I'll be attending Miss THA to win this year, not because someone forced me to do it.] and I desperately wish that my parents or well my father was more responsible.
My father wastes him money on broken cars to waste more money to fix them up again. He forgets he has two teens living at home, and on top of it all, we're girls. Hate to break it to him, but I WANT a pretty dress for once in my life, something I ACTUALLY wanted because it was beautiful and just perfect, not because it was the prettiest one that was on sale. I'm being sooo selfish right now and dreaming and bitching about something as silly as a dress, but honestly, it's sad that I have to wish for it so badly. My little sister is starting the whole teenager/shopping/clothes thing, and I had to tell her no about 3 different things she wanted to buy the last time I went to the mall. My father is too busy spending money on things that isn't really great. Why can't he pay for the private school tuition and bills first before the cars? I'd understand why I couldn't get pretty dresses then.
Those damn dresses. Who the hell pays $400 or more dollars for a dress they buy once then forget about it?
I hate the fact I want one so badly. I want my perfect red-corset dress. I really do. It's really pitiful to not want to go shopping now not because I just can't stand the crowds [which I do.] but more because I NEVER have money to spend on new clothes. I haven't gotten a new piece of clothing I wanted in over 6 months now I think. My sister is a bit longer than that. Birthday money is coming up, and I want to spend it on clothes, but honestly, it only goes so far. And I always feel horrible once I buy it. Guilt. Every time I go shopping for new clothes, I feel guilt.
I don't think I'm going to use this upcoming money on clothes though sadly. I'll probably have to save it so I can get new things for my college dorm. It's wonderful how I can't trust on my parents to provide for me, and I really need a job.
Whenever this license test day comes up, Job comes in, maybe I'll be able to spend some of that into a new pretty dress and I'll quit bitching about how I want one so badly...
Just maybe...
Stupid distance. It's always been a problem to me.
I wish I had some money. Big time. I'm looking at beautiful dresses for ideas about prom, and pageant [Which btw, I'll be attending Miss THA to win this year, not because someone forced me to do it.] and I desperately wish that my parents or well my father was more responsible.
My father wastes him money on broken cars to waste more money to fix them up again. He forgets he has two teens living at home, and on top of it all, we're girls. Hate to break it to him, but I WANT a pretty dress for once in my life, something I ACTUALLY wanted because it was beautiful and just perfect, not because it was the prettiest one that was on sale. I'm being sooo selfish right now and dreaming and bitching about something as silly as a dress, but honestly, it's sad that I have to wish for it so badly. My little sister is starting the whole teenager/shopping/clothes thing, and I had to tell her no about 3 different things she wanted to buy the last time I went to the mall. My father is too busy spending money on things that isn't really great. Why can't he pay for the private school tuition and bills first before the cars? I'd understand why I couldn't get pretty dresses then.
Those damn dresses. Who the hell pays $400 or more dollars for a dress they buy once then forget about it?
I hate the fact I want one so badly. I want my perfect red-corset dress. I really do. It's really pitiful to not want to go shopping now not because I just can't stand the crowds [which I do.] but more because I NEVER have money to spend on new clothes. I haven't gotten a new piece of clothing I wanted in over 6 months now I think. My sister is a bit longer than that. Birthday money is coming up, and I want to spend it on clothes, but honestly, it only goes so far. And I always feel horrible once I buy it. Guilt. Every time I go shopping for new clothes, I feel guilt.
I don't think I'm going to use this upcoming money on clothes though sadly. I'll probably have to save it so I can get new things for my college dorm. It's wonderful how I can't trust on my parents to provide for me, and I really need a job.
Whenever this license test day comes up, Job comes in, maybe I'll be able to spend some of that into a new pretty dress and I'll quit bitching about how I want one so badly...
Just maybe...
Stupid distance. It's always been a problem to me.
posted by Angel at
6:26 PM
1 Comments:
hmm....
i don't think you're being childish. you just really want something. it's no different really than wanting a relationship with someone, or a certain school to go to, or whatever.
i want alot of things that are out of my reach.
it sucks.
that is all.
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