It's my party and I'll cry if I want to.

Senior Year.
pretty heavy.
It took the first day of school for me to realize that I'm actually finally on my last year of school.
It felt weird, honestly.
Not a bad weird, a good one I guess, but not even classified as "good".
Just weird.
I walked in the gym and looked for the older kids, then realized....wait...I AM the older kid.
How. Weird. yeah.
So far, classes, and school in general is pretty laid back. It's the most time I've ever had during school. I'm a bit scared honestly.
This year will bring a lot of change, I can tell.
There's about 4 "new" people in our class. Honestly, I know of one, hate another, and the other 2 are just...there.
It's really odd, I use to be that. The new one in this strange little school. I noticed how everyone acts around the new new kids. The one from Bluffton. Paul[?] People would rather be with me instead of him. It's quite sad honestly. People are sooo use to olds things...what's going to happen when they become pushed into a new world of college? I hope they crash and burn honestly. Why? I know it's a harsh thing to say, but I bet more than half of them have no clue how hard it is being "new". It really is difficult when you're scared, and no one tries to help.
I'd help the new new one...but sadly every time I do, it feels like he's hitting on me, and ask Gabi, it takes a brick wall for me to notice that one. So it's really awkward. [[feedback and help would be nice. I think I feel pity and relate to him so I wouldn't mind befriending him, but it's odd. feedback would be wonderful.]]
Working in the lunchroom. [[note that the Paul [?] kid works then as well....so it makes things even harder. >.>]]
I deal with the k-5 until you hit 3rd grade. They sadly range from cute to confused, to annoying, to odd. It's a bit moe difficult when the teachers of these kids tell you 3 things to do for each kid, all conflicting each other.
"Make sure you just make the wallet and read the list then hand the food over."
"Wait, just give the wallet back!"
"Send them down the line to the cashiers."
"No, take their money and make sure it's correct and put it in the money box yourself!"

....
I do NOT deal with confusing orders.
I can deal with people, it's the adult teachers that annoy me....
[[sad when a 5 year old is easier to understand....]]

It's all for cruise though. BTW, I leave May 13-17. I'm pretty excited. 4 days away with random people. wonderful. <3

Money has become a big deal as well....
I thankfully have paid/worked off a lot of my band dues, leaving only $50 to pay. [[original was $130, crazy, right?]]
Senior pictures are about $300 min. and I need that paid and sent very soon.
I'm not getting any invitations for graduation AT ALL, but I must buy the cap, gown, and tassel for Graduation. [[they are going to deal with me wearing all of my band pins/medals...]]
I'm probably going to enter in Miss THA again....just for the hell of it's my Senior year, so why not? That's $25 if they stay within the same range.
God only knows what else...oh! Prom. How could I forget. :/

Speaking of prom. I only want to go with one person, Not sure if He wants to go with me anyways...or is allowed to....and I want to take Gabi, cuz I'm pretty sure she'll never have a prom experience, and I REALLY want her at prom. <3

With all of my family's money problems, my mom still wants me to get a new dress, but she's cut back on her "any dress" to a cheap new dress....so my red corset dress idea has gone out the window...
[[I'm quite upset with that one.]]

Ah, well....so goes life.

[[I'm not even touching college or scholarship crap just yet.]]

Goodnight loves.
Always.
Angel.