[P.Y.T.]
Well I couldn't think of another title for this blog, I seem to put music related stuff as titles.
P.Y.T is what I'm listening to and what I'll be memorizing to play tomorrow. fun stuff.
So I came home from watching Funny People today.
I'd like to note that it wasn't the best movie ever. it was actually a bit annoying and made not only myself, but a friend of mine a tad bit sad.
You think for a while about "the one".
Well, will you screw it up?
Will you actually find this person?
Will they hit you so hard that if you do decide they are "the one" then will that person honor that?
Will it impact you do much that you'll most likely date people that that person if you two don't work out?
How annoying is this train of thought, right?
It's pretty annoying when you don't want to think about the future in that way.
"I wanna rock with you~ all night...."
yeah, random lyric.
Because of band, I'm listening to a lot of Michael Jackson, Akon, and Love Sex and Magic song....
can you tell that's what we're playing this season? XD
Anyways.
I sometimes wonder if I've already fucked up my life too far...
I think so far it's highly possible and I need to try to salvage it with dignity.
Sad..not even 18 just yet and already fucked it up. What. Is wrong with that picture?
I apparently have a general 52 more years of life in a scientific record of life length and the possibility that I'll never be fully happy with how it's turned out.
Wonderful.
I'm quite nervous thinking about life.
But if the Mayans were right, then in about 2 years and a few months, I'll die and don't have to worry about it at all!
hmm...
interesting.
Well I'd like to hope that I live my life to happiness, and this is just a phase.
I hope that's true and will play out.
Depression sucks and should be taken out of human life.
I don't understand why it's even here.
grawr.
well I think that's all for tonight...
Wonderfully Done.
~Angel.
P.Y.T is what I'm listening to and what I'll be memorizing to play tomorrow. fun stuff.
So I came home from watching Funny People today.
I'd like to note that it wasn't the best movie ever. it was actually a bit annoying and made not only myself, but a friend of mine a tad bit sad.
You think for a while about "the one".
Well, will you screw it up?
Will you actually find this person?
Will they hit you so hard that if you do decide they are "the one" then will that person honor that?
Will it impact you do much that you'll most likely date people that that person if you two don't work out?
How annoying is this train of thought, right?
It's pretty annoying when you don't want to think about the future in that way.
"I wanna rock with you~ all night...."
yeah, random lyric.
Because of band, I'm listening to a lot of Michael Jackson, Akon, and Love Sex and Magic song....
can you tell that's what we're playing this season? XD
Anyways.
I sometimes wonder if I've already fucked up my life too far...
I think so far it's highly possible and I need to try to salvage it with dignity.
Sad..not even 18 just yet and already fucked it up. What. Is wrong with that picture?
I apparently have a general 52 more years of life in a scientific record of life length and the possibility that I'll never be fully happy with how it's turned out.
Wonderful.
I'm quite nervous thinking about life.
But if the Mayans were right, then in about 2 years and a few months, I'll die and don't have to worry about it at all!
hmm...
interesting.
Well I'd like to hope that I live my life to happiness, and this is just a phase.
I hope that's true and will play out.
Depression sucks and should be taken out of human life.
I don't understand why it's even here.
grawr.
well I think that's all for tonight...
Wonderfully Done.
~Angel.
posted by Angel at
11:35 PM
4 Comments:
"Depression sucks and should be taken out of human life."
"The reader will doubtless ask: what in the worldis the value and meaning of a neurosis, this most useless and pestilent curse of humanity? To be neurotic-what good can that do? As much good, possibly, as flies and other pests, which the good Lord created so that man might exercise the useful virtue of patience. However stupid this thought is from the point of the natural science, it may yet be sensible enough for the view of psychology, if we put "nervous symptoms" instead of "pests." Even Nietzshe, a rare one for scorning stupid and banal thoughts, more than once acknowledged how much he owed to his malady. I myself have known more than one person who owed his entire usefulness and reason for existence to a neurosis which prevented all the worst follies in his life and forced him to a mode ofliving that developed his valuable potentialities."
-Carl Jung
"Dolor hic tibi proderit olim" (Latin: Somdeday this pain will be useful to you)
"Sedit qui timuit ne non succederet" (Lation: He who feared he would not succeed, sat still)
I know...
Just a random feeling is all.
you haven't fucked up your life, angel. you should not think that anymore.
you have your whole life ahead of you. and the only reason that the past is ever going to affect what your life turns out like, is because you let it.
there are going to be so many changes. and chances. and loves. and fights. and happy memories and times you wish you weren't here. but without those times, how are you supposed to really appreciate the moments when you're more happy than you've ever been?
you have that desire to be something. and as long as you don't lose that, your life is never going to be a waste.
-hailey.
I hope you're right.
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