Don't waste your time on me you're already the voice inside my head. I miss you..

I've never felt more alone. It's my turn to feel shockingly depressed.
I need to be in college. now.
No one is here to really talk to me.
I have to wait for hours and hours for someone to get online to feel just slightly comforted.

It's now not the jealousy of someone being pretty or not....more of someone actually being able to be social in an environment that is equally alone and has a thirst for new friends.

I miss him.
so much that my heart hurts constantly.
My best friend.
The only one who has stuck by me through EVERYTHING.
I'm fighting tears now just to show that I will be ok.
I'm fighting to say that I'm not hurt and push through.
I'm fighting to wait a little longer. To keep having hope and to not breakdown and cry forever.


It's ok...

It'll only hurt for a little bit longer.